i thought id try a live one...

awkward rapping into my laptop haha

again really?

im here almost done with my second year of college
but i feel as though i dont have much academic knowledge
just a wacked out brain and a cracked out heart
put this way, by this girl, rippin it apart.
third blog today once again i start
i cant stop feelin these feelins in me
and i cant stop thinkin these thoughts you see
shes always on my mind and i never forget her
i need to physically force myself to try and neglect her
but i cant i always fail,
her eyes in my mind set sail
but shes taken, my feelings for her are not fakin
but hers for me im still yet to see
she tells me that she really cares for me
but if you cared for me would you be so recklessly
handlin my feelins and yours
spill from the ducts in my eyes and my pores
when were together i feel it oh so strong
but when shes with him i couldnt feel more wrong
if she had to make a choice no doubt itd be him
but i just want to feel like she cares a little bit
i keept puttin myself into this position for pain
if heartbreaks were money shed always make it rain
what am i to you?
answer me:
what am i to you?
am i another dude to talk to when your relationship is rocky?
some rebound guy on the side the substitute jockey?
you drop me when he comes around and treats you right?
forget about me, after you went over there to spend the night?
maybe yes
maybe no
but i hope that im more
we made the agreement to always be friends
and if its cause of this that that relationship ends
then im hella disappointed, youre not what i thought
you were but i think youre better,
a standard setter
you broke all the rules for girls i thought there were
and youre the only one who ive never tried to kiss her

the good

theres a girl who brightens my day when i see her
the cutest little beaver i just wish you could meet her
shes got big buck teeth but i kinda likem
shoulders uneven but i kinda likem
one foots way bigger than the other,
but if i had the chance i wouldnt change em for another
cause they make her special and shes hella unique
she likes to criticize herself a bad critique
but i think shes perfect when it comes to her physique
if only i could tell her what i want to say
but wait, its 10 am and she just left ucla

the bad

i dont get it
i wish i could quit it
wish i could move on and just forget it
see its, 90% me and 10% her
gives me some hope and then i infer
that there are things happening that really arent
makes me feel good then tears me apart
and it kills me now cause i dont have anything else to miss
and it kills me now cause i let myself get like this