i thought id try a live one...

awkward rapping into my laptop haha

again really?

im here almost done with my second year of college
but i feel as though i dont have much academic knowledge
just a wacked out brain and a cracked out heart
put this way, by this girl, rippin it apart.
third blog today once again i start
i cant stop feelin these feelins in me
and i cant stop thinkin these thoughts you see
shes always on my mind and i never forget her
i need to physically force myself to try and neglect her
but i cant i always fail,
her eyes in my mind set sail
but shes taken, my feelings for her are not fakin
but hers for me im still yet to see
she tells me that she really cares for me
but if you cared for me would you be so recklessly
handlin my feelins and yours
spill from the ducts in my eyes and my pores
when were together i feel it oh so strong
but when shes with him i couldnt feel more wrong
if she had to make a choice no doubt itd be him
but i just want to feel like she cares a little bit
i keept puttin myself into this position for pain
if heartbreaks were money shed always make it rain
what am i to you?
answer me:
what am i to you?
am i another dude to talk to when your relationship is rocky?
some rebound guy on the side the substitute jockey?
you drop me when he comes around and treats you right?
forget about me, after you went over there to spend the night?
maybe yes
maybe no
but i hope that im more
we made the agreement to always be friends
and if its cause of this that that relationship ends
then im hella disappointed, youre not what i thought
you were but i think youre better,
a standard setter
you broke all the rules for girls i thought there were
and youre the only one who ive never tried to kiss her

the good

theres a girl who brightens my day when i see her
the cutest little beaver i just wish you could meet her
shes got big buck teeth but i kinda likem
shoulders uneven but i kinda likem
one foots way bigger than the other,
but if i had the chance i wouldnt change em for another
cause they make her special and shes hella unique
she likes to criticize herself a bad critique
but i think shes perfect when it comes to her physique
if only i could tell her what i want to say
but wait, its 10 am and she just left ucla

the bad

i dont get it
i wish i could quit it
wish i could move on and just forget it
see its, 90% me and 10% her
gives me some hope and then i infer
that there are things happening that really arent
makes me feel good then tears me apart
and it kills me now cause i dont have anything else to miss
and it kills me now cause i let myself get like this

over it

hold up i think i had an epiphany
i need to make a change and i am the remedy
if i really am as strong as i tend to think i am
then it shouldnt be too hard gettin my mind out of this jam
see, she dont control me she dont know me
she definitely dont see what she needs to see
see i know it sucks for the bf
but eff him i dont care about him
its her i worry about
originally i didnt plan on lettin all of this out
but recently i decided to fuck it, besides
shell prolly never see my blog so chuck it
tell me: what are the last three nice things hes done for you?
or two?
or one for that matter
now how much do u put out? for how much you get back?
you wanna flip it on me put me under attack? fine.
ive done more for you in a couple days than hes done in a while
and if youd allow me to you know id take you out in style
disneyland, avenue q, even just the movies
and i promise i wont even try to feel on your boobies
i dont want you stay in a relationship cause its comfy
youre not a passenger just along for the ride
so slide over a little
please dont settle
even if you cant see it i know wed be good for one another
even ask your brother
or your other brother, cause you got like 9
fine
dont
choose to ignore it
im done playin these games im so bored of it
but when the day comes when youre finally by yourself
after a string of guys had you and left you on the shelf
dont go asking why you can never find nice guys
cause im here... looking you right in between the eyes

these 3 dudes

mister lin, manuel miranda
spits flows scarier than an anaconda
travic mccoy's verses hit harder
boy the worst is yet to come
cause mad lyrics are the specialty
of mr brandon boyd especially
and when it comes to what i wanna do
these dudes inspire me
on fire their
rhymes always seem to be
watch me imitate but never duplicate
cause theyre one of kind
i just wanna find
where i fall in the middle
mix it up a little
miranda mccoy dont forget mr boyd
keep windin it up like my favorite toy

hold up

its about 345 in the mornin
bout the same that i be formin
rad thoughts in my head
as i sit in my bed
reminisce about what happened yesterday
slash today
see i had ip practice for about 4 hours
but i made up for it with molca salsa heavy on the sours
cream, did i mean to throw in such a random rhyme
speakin of which my ading got ahold of me 1 o clock was the time
sayin "kuya, im bored"
oh my lord
thirty minutes later i was knockin on her door
we watched seven pounds the title was deceivin'
but overall the concept was quite relievin
i liked it, not loved it
wouldnt put dragon ball above it
but im gonna knock out
HOLD UP
wait a minute, i feel the need to spit on what happened on wednesday
forgive may
but forreal it was quite crazay
showed up at knotts to be processed for caricatures
but they sent me packin cause of the picture
i presented with myself, see my hair was too long
go home son cut it come back cause youre wrong
i guess thats the end of my jedi tails tale
but immah bounce back and you bet i never fail
give me time cause the man cant hold me back for long
maybe next blog ill even hit you with a song?